Thank you Chloe, mosiac and Allison! I really appreciate your help. I'll try to answer all 3 of you here.

I am open to a beginner's mind...just not sure how to think that way when I've been doing this part for 3 years. I'm attempting the program because I need help and am willing to do it as outlined - I think I just need a hand with the beginner's mind part on Step One.

I weigh 125 and am very physically active. I saw a dietician and a therapist about 3 years ago and that is when I started eating a protein rich breakfast. From lots of experimentation I learned that a macronutrient ratio of 50C/25P/25F spread out over the course of the day made me feel waaay better and helped most of my blood sugar problems. Poor sleep, anxiety relieved by a sugar binge, severely distracting thoughts about dessert, hiding sweets, etc. still plague me on a rotating basis. That is to say that I will go for a month or so eating the way that supports my body and feel great. Then, I will have a small treat and *BAM* the flood gates are opened and my hands put batches of cookies in my mouth all at once. After that I will go back to supportive eating for a month or two...it's a taxing cycle. I tried quitting sugar completely like...40 million times. Always a failure. That is why I'm here. Please help me think of this with a beginner's mind. I really want to heal myself.

I eat the breakfast daily within an hour of getting out of bed without fail. Fitday is really easy and free - it's what I use to calculate carbs/protein/fat.

I'm happy to share my recipes!

The breakfast I have most often is this one.

Protein Shake
2 scoops Protein Powder (32g protein)
1c. froz blueberries (1.1g protein)
1/2c. whole, rolled oats (5g protein)
1c. fresh spinach (.9g protein)
2 Tbls cacao powder (ground cacao beans, nothing else)(5g protein)
Water or Almond Milk

Occasionally I swap a banana for the oats, raspberries or strawberries for the blueberries, maybe leave the spinach or cacao out, or add a tablespoon of almond, cashew or peanut butter. My daughter makes a PB&J shake with Sunwarrior, banana, strawberries, peanut butter and almond milk.

Banana Protein Pancakes
1 scoop Pea Protein Powder (28g protein)
1 whole egg (3.6g protein)
1/3c. Soy Milk (2.3g protein)
1 banana, mashed (1.3g protein)
2/3c. whole oats (3.3g protein)
1T. flax seeds (1.1g protein)

Eggs, Veggies & Beans (ends up being ~27.5g protein):
4 egg whites (14.4g protein)
1c. mushrooms (2.2g protein)
Olive oil
Veggies (~1-3g protein)
1/2c. pinto beans, black beans or refried beans (7.0g protein)
Spinach (.9g protein)
Salsa
Cilantro

If I am traveling or camping and can't cook or blend I take 1 scoop of Vega Sport Protein Powder (25g protein) or Boku Protein Powder (26g protein) and have fruit or left over beans or whatever is available. I preplan as much as possible because I feel pretty sick, pretty fast if I don't have a good breakfast right away. That tells me that my body needs healing, not just symptom relief.

P.S. I am allergic to dairy (among many other things) otherwise I would order George's Protein Shakes!

I really appreciate you guys being here and responding on this board. If you can help me with the beginner's mind thing, I will gladly do it. I will definitely start by journaling how I feel with the different breakfasts, but would love more beginner's mind suggestions.

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: Hi Becky. Welcome - I'm glad you
: found us.

: YOu could calculate your protein
: needs (body weight in pounds
: divided by 6 = grams of protein
: for breakfast) and see how your
: breakfast stacks up. Do you always
: eat the same thing? If not, you
: could practice just journaling
: your breakfast and see if you
: notice any difference in how you
: feel with different breakfasts. It
: sounds like you may have already
: figured out how to do your
: breakfast in different
: circumstances, but that's another
: thing you could think about. The
: idea is to approach it with
: beginner's mind and see what you
: can learn when you approach it
: that way.

: So what are you having for breakfast?
: I've done a variety of different
: breakfasts over the years,
: everything from dinner food to
: sandwiches to protein shake.
: Currently I have protein shake on
: weekdays, and eggs and toast on
: the weekends. The protein shake
: allows me to exercise before work,
: but doesn't hold me quite as well
: as solid food so I've played
: around with the ingredients over
: time. It's always a learning
: process.
: Allison
: Allison