Hi Becky,

This is a very thoughtful response. I am going to answer your questions right in your post.

: I am open to a beginner's mind...just
: not sure how to think that way
: when I've been doing this part for
: 3 years.

Yes, it will take a little shifting of your perspective.

I'm attempting the
: program because I need help and am
: willing to do it as outlined - I
: think I just need a hand with the
: beginner's mind part on Step One.
:

yes, we can do that.

: I weigh 125 and am very physically
: active.

Yes, so we have a way for you to calculate your breakfast needs.
Part of *beginner's mind* would be to learn that way. It is different from
what you are doing

I saw a dietician and a
: therapist about 3 years ago and
: that is when I started eating a
: protein rich breakfast.

Yes, that is what gave you the start. Actually we are not advocating a *protein rich*
breakfast. Beginner's mind would mean learning what we are doing and why. I will explore of
why this program is so different from what you have been doing. Beginner's mind will
allow you to step out of feeling that you have everything set and come to the process with a
sense of not knowing everything and being open to change.

From lots
: of experimentation I learned that
: a macronutrient ratio of
: 50C/25P/25F spread out over the
: course of the day made me feel
: waaay better and helped most
: of my blood sugar problems.
: Poor sleep, anxiety relieved by a
: sugar binge, severely distracting
: thoughts about dessert, hiding
: sweets, etc. still plague me on a
: rotating basis. That is to
: say that I will go for a month or
: so eating the way that supports my
: body and feel great. Then, I will
: have a small treat and *BAM* the
: flood gates are opened and my
: hands put batches of cookies in my
: mouth all at once. After that I
: will go back to supportive eating
: for a month or two...it's a taxing
: cycle. I tried quitting sugar
: completely like...40 million
: times. Always a failure. That is
: why I'm here. Please help me think
: of this with a beginner's mind. I
: really want to heal myself.

I am happy to help. You are obviously committed and willing.
But what you are doing is not working Your brain says
I feel great, except when I don't. But it doesn't connect with
the don't part. The program you are doing would be just fine
for someone who is not sugar sensitive, but it is a disaster for
some one who is not only sugar sensitive but a sugar addict.
The yo-yo cycle you are describing is in fact VERY taxing and is clobbering
your brain and your body.

What we will do here is help you to HEAL your sugar sensitive brain and
to stop the addictive crisis and drama of falling off the cliff every month or so.

: I eat the breakfast daily within an
: hour of getting out of bed without
: fail. Fitday is really easy and
: free - it's what I use to
: calculate carbs/protein/fat.

Part of what we do is to NOT use something like fitday.
And not to count carbs/proteins/fats. That keeps you focused on your
numbers rather than your body.

Your breakfasts sound delicious. There are some differences in how we calculate.
and if you are open to that, you can explore it. My suggestion would be that
you join the fitness list. I think you will feel most comfortable there in
learning the logistics of what we are doing.

: P.S. I am allergic to dairy (among
: many other things) otherwise I
: would order George's Protein
: Shakes!

Actually Restore is whey protein isolate and has no lactose or casein, which are
the two culprits that dairy allergy comes from. One benefit from doing this program
is that many of your food allergies can be healed.

: I really appreciate you guys being
: here and responding on this board.
: If you can help me with the
: beginner's mind thing, I will
: gladly do it. I will definitely
: start by journaling how I feel
: with the different breakfasts, but
: would love more beginner's mind
: suggestions.

Before you start journaling, my suggestion is to learn what we are actually doing
My sense is that your brain read about the program and said, *yep, check, got it!* but
you haven't taken the time to understand what the *it* is yet.

The class that we are doing next week called What Else is Embedded in the Steps might also
give you some very nice context.

I love your energy and willingness!!

Warmly,

kathleen