I had that inner voice too, but mine didn't tell me I was fat. It told me I was ugly, stupid, unlovable, cursed etc. I would look in the mirror and be filled with feelings of self-loathing. Mine also went away sometime during step 3. I remember one day I suddenly realized that it was gone. Now, even if a have a bad day, although I might have fleeting thoughts like that, the voice in my head that constantly berated me never comes back. So glad to not have it!

One of the three highlights of my early recovery:
1) realizing everything I hated about myself was a symptom of a biochemical imbalance, not a character flaw
2) the mean voice in my head going away
3) realizing my compulsive shopping had stopped without any effort on my part

Allison

: Just as a contrast - I can remember
: (as a rather distant past - has it
: only been 5 years?) hating myself
: all the time for being so fat. My
: mind was a very uncomfortable
: place with my inner voice always
: telling me how awful I was. Ouch!
: It slowed down somewhere during Step
: 3 and went away without my even
: noticing, helped along by some of
: the classes such as 'Fat Terror'
: and 'The Obesity Myth'. But
: mostly, helped by just doing the
: program and healing my
: biochemistry. And now - no more of
: that demeaning, accusatory voice
: berating myself all the time.
: Freedom!!