Re: Going around in circles
In Response To: Re: Going around in circles ()

Thank you all so much for taking the time to respond to me -- thank you especially, Kathleen, for writing to me on Christmas Eve! (And the newsletter testimonial this week was just what I needed, as well.)

I read all your notes right away, and have been pondering them. It's true -- I don't trust it yet -- just like you, mosaic, part of me is very convinced and part of me finds it very hard to trust *anything*. I keep questioning whether I really am sugar sensitive.

I can't will myself to trust ... but I can see that not trusting, still looking at other programs and stuff online "just to reassure myself this is the right one," isn't getting me anywhere, and takes up some of that time I say I don't have any of!!! (And yes, SJD, I do grab just anything for energy -- it makes my eating very random and doesn't feel good at all.)

Your last line about paying attention to what's working, Kathleen, made me laugh, but it's so true. Nothing I've ever done has made me feel as much better emotionally as this one, and I'm still only doing it a little. So even if I can't truly say I have full trust, acting as if I do until I get there seems like a pretty good idea.

I've also *never* just done what I was told, eating wise. No matter what program I was doing, I only did it about 80%. That was usually enough when the goal was just to lose weight, but this is different.

I signed up for the beta endorphin class, and I am revisiting step one with the intention to do ALL the four parts, not 3 out of 4. The ideas Kathleen has for that group are coming at the perfect time for me. I'm also going to try to post here more often; I can at least read every day. I can set my alarm a little bit earlier, and do most of that first thing in the morning to make sure it happens.

Thank you all again for your kind but honest support -- it means so much!

Pam