Dear Pam...I did not respond right away because I have been so wobbly myself, having played around with RR for over a decade.. I am learning to trust it one day at a time and follow instructions.....childlike .....Kathleen, SJD,Allison and Mosaic have been with me through the years ......they are great mentors...but I must take responsibility for myself..grow up ..Easy does it but do it....happy to hear you have signed up for classes and come here....for now just do Step One and come here daily so we can share each others journey and encourage each other...blessings and love Char

: I read all your notes right away, and
: have been pondering them. It's
: true -- I don't trust it yet --
: just like you, mosaic, part of me
: is very convinced and part of me
: finds it very hard to trust
: *anything*. I keep questioning
: whether I really am sugar
: sensitive.

: I can't will myself to trust ... but
: I can see that not trusting, still
: looking at other programs and
: stuff online "just to
: reassure myself this is the right
: one," isn't getting me
: anywhere, and takes up some of
: that time I say I don't have any
: of!!! (And yes, SJD, I do grab
: just anything for energy -- it
: makes my eating very random and
: doesn't feel good at all.)

: Your last line about paying attention
: to what's working, Kathleen, made
: me laugh, but it's so true.
: Nothing I've ever done has made me
: feel as much better emotionally as
: this one, and I'm still only doing
: it a little. So even if I can't
: truly say I have full trust,
: acting as if I do until I get
: there seems like a pretty good
: idea.

: I've also *never* just done what I
: was told, eating wise. No matter
: what program I was doing, I only
: did it about 80%. That was usually
: enough when the goal was just to
: lose weight, but this is
: different.

: I signed up for the beta endorphin
: class, and I am revisiting step
: one with the intention to do ALL
: the four parts, not 3 out of 4.
: The ideas Kathleen has for that
: group are coming at the perfect
: time for me. I'm also going to try
: to post here more often; I can at
: least read every day. I can set my
: alarm a little bit earlier, and do
: most of that first thing in the
: morning to make sure it happens.

: Thank you all again for your kind but
: honest support -- it means so
: much!

: Pam