HI Laureen
Would you be willing to post a few days of your food? I'm wondering if you aren't eating enough, or your meals are too far apart. Lots of crashing sounds like a blood sugar issue to me, and when blood sugar is wonky, so are emotions. Also let us know if you are exercising, how much etc.
Allison

: I had two really good days this week
: or so i thought. I finally had
: some energy and actually got some
: things accomplished. Today I feel
: like I am pushing a truck up a
: hill again. I had felt so good
: about being productive but when I
: looked back at my journal I was
: surprised to see that I had
: written cranky, frustrated and
: awful several times during those
: two days, and even wrote one sad.

: Prior to RR and for as long as I can
: remember, I have said that I had
: one good week a month. There is
: pms week, the week of my cycle and
: then a recovery week. Then I have
: one good week where I go like
: crazy, get lots accomplished and
: actually have hope. I always knew
: there was something wrong.

: After two years of RR (I am still on
: step three and crashing all the
: time)this pattern is still
: repeating. Although my "one
: good week" seems to be only
: 2-4 days per month instead of an
: actual week. I obviously still
: have a lot of work to do in this
: program but will this pattern ever
: go away? Is this a BE issue and
: not related to my daily blood
: sugar volatility? Or is this
: something else that the food will
: not solve?

: The line from the books "The
: pain of the dissonance between all
: that you know and what you are
: actually able to do in your life
: is horrible" haunts me. Can
: anyone help my muddled brain?

: thanks,
: Laureen