Newbie says Hello

Hi All,
I'm new to RR having purchased Potatoes not prozac a couple months ago. I've had a gut feeling for some time now that in order to get my life on track I first need to address my eating. I've been fighting that knowledge with gusto, despite desperately wanting to move my life forward into the place I know it can get to (ie a great, positive place where I am living nearer to my true potential)
Food is so safe - it keeps me where I'm used to being! I hate it and love it all at the same time but it plagues pretty much most of my waking moments. Is this part of sugar sensitivity?

I'm trying to focus just on step one as the book suggests - my style is more rush rush rush, then wonder why it's not working, then give up. I think I rush stuff so it won't work so I can safely go back to what I know whilst being able to cry and moan about the fact that I try and it doesn't work. Victim mode welcomes me back with open arms every time!

I think doing step one slowly will mean facing the 'stuff' that i've been successfully hiding from for all these years. And that's vital if i'm gonna move forward.
Is this familiar to anyone else? x