Hi Cheryl. Welcome!
Rushing is all part of the drama we love - dramatic changes, struggles, self fulfilling prophecy of failure etc. Good for recognizing that.

If you take this nice and slow, you will not have to face anything you aren't ready for, and you will succeed. And you will feel so much better. My depression ended, and my drama and self hatred ended. My life has gotten so much better. And I've been able to maintain this new lifestyle long term - for over 10 years.
Allison

: Hi All,
: I'm new to RR having purchased
: Potatoes not prozac a couple
: months ago. I've had a gut feeling
: for some time now that in order to
: get my life on track I first need
: to address my eating. I've been
: fighting that knowledge with
: gusto, despite desperately wanting
: to move my life forward into the
: place I know it can get to (ie a
: great, positive place where I am
: living nearer to my true
: potential)
: Food is so safe - it keeps me where
: I'm used to being! I hate it and
: love it all at the same time but
: it plagues pretty much most of my
: waking moments. Is this part of
: sugar sensitivity?

: I'm trying to focus just on step one
: as the book suggests - my style is
: more rush rush rush, then wonder
: why it's not working, then give
: up. I think I rush stuff so it
: won't work so I can safely go back
: to what I know whilst being able
: to cry and moan about the fact
: that I try and it doesn't work.
: Victim mode welcomes me back with
: open arms every time!

: I think doing step one slowly will
: mean facing the 'stuff' that i've
: been successfully hiding from for
: all these years. And that's vital
: if i'm gonna move forward.
: Is this familiar to anyone else? x