: hi Betteo
: 'frenzy' sounds hard work. I remember
: feeling frenzied myself!

: Its a great word that really does
: describe my biochemistry
: unbalanced. Doing the food is much
: calmer

: how are you doing with the steps
: Betteo? is there anything we can
: help you with?
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Thanks for identifying with my nightmare. I have been on RR for along long time. My life fell apart three years ago and I ended up living aboard my boat on Boston Harbor after losing my home and everything else to mold in the home. When I moved out Jan 2011 my attitude was if I could stick with the program and hold my weight (ugh) I would be ok. I have achieved this under some pretty horrific days. Monday you might say I fell off the boat into the water. I had a deposition, dreaded going, feared a panic attack, the person who was picking me up was stuck in traffic and I was stuck in a convenience store mouth watering for candy (my weakness). I self medicated on five candy bars and my depo was a disaster as I did a crash and burn. I understand the trigger and have to go back 6/29 for an encore.
During the last three years it took tweaking to handle the program on the boat and adjust provisioning. Right now I am back on the food, understand I am vulnerable and must be more aware it is safer to stand in the rain than in the convenience store or plan alternate location to be picked up.
Bette