Will I ever lose this weight?

Since starting the steps again in August (I am currently on step three) I have gained eight more pounds. I feel a little panicky that my weight continues to go up. I see my heart specialist next month for my annual visit and I've gained sixteen pounds since my last visit.

I've done well with the breakfasts and okay with the journal. I eat three meals a day with protein (but maybe a little sloppy on that one). I still have sugar binges but have it with my dinner meal. Hate myself for that. What am I doing wrong?

I am so encouraged by the YLD chat on Wednesday and know that I am in the right place. I just wish I could work this program better. Maybe I am too old to get it. I am 76.