: Hi Donna,
I can totally relate to wanting to hurry. I am just a few days on Step 1 and I have been silently engaged in an ongoing conversation with myself that says all I need to do today is breakfast. Once I have done that I have achieved a victory that no rushing in the world can do. I am really understanding that this part of me that wants to rush and check off the box is the real voice of this addiction. It has no power except what I give it so by just doing breakfast I am invincible to the old records that try to tempt me into a shortcut that I KNOW will only lead to failure. My Freedom is happening on all levels by just sticking to breakfast. My mind does not know how to battle simpicity. It only knows how to project fear and create drama and complexity. Because I have learnd this from the book I can see it with more clarity now. During the day I have times where I emotionally eat or eat too much but I have chosen to just observe and try to learn what my body needs instead of letting the old hater take me down. I have also made a conscious decision that I am not going to worry or focus on my weight at all. Having a balanced brain chemistry is truly my only goal. Everything else will fall into place when I focus on this most important goal. The steps are filled with magic. I see it already in just a few days and I am only able to see it because I refuse to rush this time. I am taking as long as my body needs to get every benefit out of every step. When my thoughts try to create panic about only eating three meals a day and getting the right amount of protein and eating early enough that there is 3 hours before bed and the potatoes - I say to myself. Today I am doing breakfast. The skills that I am building by doing breakfast will build and with each step I will be prepared fully before I need to go to the next step. So I say to my fear - You have no power because I have found the solution that will set me free and I am going slowly and will not miss this opportunity for victory over my old habits.

I find that it takes a lot of determined self-talk to keep those voices in check.

Find what works for you. I know this will work for you. Sending you lots of Love and big hugs.

Linda

HELP!!!
: Restarting Step One and wanting to
: rush through to get all the
: promises of Radiance. I KNOW this
: is not a good idea. I KNOW I have
: to take my time. Can someone talk
: me down? I want this time to be
: the time that lasts and rushing
: through is not going to make that
: happen.

: any encouragement is welcome.

: Donna
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