Hi Jane
Good to see you here. I’m fairly new and now on step 3, still struggle with the journal but will keep going! I’m loving the process and the support here. Your Art and design course sounds great.
Fiona

Hello everyone it Jane here. Best
: wishes to you all

: I used to be part of this forum and
: in sugar addiction recovery
: 18 years ago, omg while
: I was living in Singapore. I am
: back home living in Scotland, I
: have 2 children the youngest being
: 14 the oldest is 19 and he is at
: university studying Psychology.
: I divorced my husband years ago, He
: thought I was his personal maid,
: and he had that maid for life,
: wrong, I take full responsibility
: though, for being in that
: situation and letting someone
: treat me like that.
: Anyways the past 3 years I have been
: healing from my abusive,
: neglectful childhood. Both my
: parents were very self absorbed
: they had 3 kids and didn't want
: anything to to with us.
: My mother was always wound up to the
: max around us she was aggressive,
: manipulative, violent, my father
: was not around us much but when he
: was he was violent and scary.
: My older brother would verbally abuse
: me daily telling me I was ugly and
: stupid and my poor sister who had
: special needs was was frequently
: traumatized by my dads aggression.
: So all these childhood experiences
: shaped me into the adult I became
: who was someone who didn't have
: any self worth and was on a
: mission to self destruction, then
: I married an alcoholic who would
: go on to treat me the same way my
: parents did. I had been
: conditioned to be the underdog and
: do as I was told.
: But as I said already I have been
: working hard to turn myself
: around. digging deep to get to the
: pain then healing it. Its been a
: sometimes difficult and sometimes
: joyful journey and I'm still in
: the process, its on going.

: MY life is awesome now, I only work
: part time as a healthcare
: assistant and I am at college full
: time studying Art and Design,
: something I've wanted to do for
: years. Which has exceeded my
: expectations, I'm loving it
: I have created a network of loving
: supportive friends, I have no
: money issues or worries in fact I
: have an abundance to take from
: when needed, but at 51 years old I
: now know the the money is nothing
: compared to the joy of seeing your
: family happy and healthy or taking
: a walk along a beach or a stroll
: up a peaceful hill at sunset.
: So I am fully ready to do the steps
: once again and completely cut out
: the toxic waste that is on offer
: to us daily. I have been eating
: breakfast with protein all week
: and its amazing how much my
: stomach has went down, I have been
: bloated and ill with it for quite
: a while and I have not been this
: heavy in my life.

: Its great to have this support here
: and I hope get some yummy recipes
: too I do have the radiant recipe
: book somewhere in the house xxx