First Katherine, you are amazing. I just read an email from her that newbies can get "wobbly" at my point - just starting and the enthusiasm is waning. She suggested that I connect to the forum.

Rather than run and hide I'm taking her advice. Some background - ACOA, I just turned 63, and have been battling obesity, isolation, and depression my whole life. I've been in therapy for over 20 years. Like many of us, I get temporary relief but find myself back in the black pit of despair.

The present: So... I've been on step 1 for 2 months and was really feeling the benefit of breakfast. But, guess I had to sabotage myself. Besides the sugar addiction, gluten is dangerous for me as it causes depression. I just got back from a trip to visit my mother and sister in Florida and while I was there threw out everything nutritionally that I've learned because I just could not tell them I was making yet another attempt to overcome my issues. My mother, in particular, goes out of her way to disparage anything positive that happens. I told myself it would just be easier to pretend that I have given up and eat anything I wanted.

This is harder than I thought it would be... I'm starting to realize this is much more complicated than just giving up sugar. I have an addiction to overcome. Commitment has not been one of my virtues but this time if I can't fully commit I'm not going to walk away and will keep trying.