Sorry, I posted too soon. Just had an appt with a nurse practitioner who was a student and my regular np didn’t come in at first. I was annoyed with this stranger esp because she wanted to tell me about food issues -I have gained weight-and felt very vulnerable- I took issue with her comma cation style and spoke up trying to explain that if she expressed herself differently and showed more empathy so I didn’t feel she was as delivering a lecture about what I already know and felt vulnerable about it would work better for me.

I didn’t want to nod my head and not pay attention. I wanted to speak up used “I” statements and held my ground when the supervisor my usual NP came home.

Yesterday day I ate a LOT of sugar and I was expecting a reaction.. And here it was. How they s was helpfully was I don’t d not a explode etc but stood up for myself which I don’t always do I was not the “nice” guy listening and not getting any real help. Another good part was that the anger was real and when I left I realized if I just got in the car and left I would probably buy sugar stuff. Instead I thought of who/what would be helpful and am posting to you.
I do not feel angry at myself for speaking up. Or at them (the student said she understood) I actually have evidence of my reaction to sugar, and will continue the steps I am worked by on accommodations pushing. I had breakfast with protein and carb diet n time today and have consistent with that. I’m trying to get myself to track and having some success. (Tracking was what this lecture was about and I was angry about b I got told how important ant it is when I have been trying so hard but ineffectually to track consistently. And admitting to her that I ate a lot of candy yesterday was not something I feel comfortable sharing but I did). So this was ncident was helpful to me as is being able to post about it. Now it’s time for me to rejoin n the step 2 email list.thank you for readings by this,