: Sorry, I posted too soon. Just had an
: appt with a nurse practitioner who
: was a student and my regular np
: didn’t come in at first. I was
: annoyed with this stranger esp
: because she wanted to tell me
: about food issues -I have gained
: weight-and felt very vulnerable- I
: took issue with her comma cation
: style and spoke up trying to
: explain that if she expressed
: herself differently and showed
: more empathy so I didn’t feel she
: was as delivering a lecture about
: what I already know and felt
: vulnerable about it would work
: better for me.

: I didn’t want to nod my head and not
: pay attention. I wanted to speak
: up used “I” statements and held my
: ground when the supervisor my
: usual NP came home.

: Yesterday day I ate a LOT of sugar
: and I was expecting a reaction..
: And here it was. How they s was
: helpfully was I don’t d not a
: explode etc but stood up for
: myself which I don’t always do I
: was not the “nice” guy listening
: and not getting any real help.
: Another good part was that the
: anger was real and when I left I
: realized if I just got in the car
: and left I would probably buy
: sugar stuff. Instead I thought of
: who/what would be helpful and am
: posting to you.
: I do not feel angry at myself for
: speaking up. Or at them (the
: student said she understood) I
: actually have evidence of my
: reaction to sugar, and will
: continue the steps I am worked by
: on accommodations pushing. I had
: breakfast with protein and carb
: diet n time today and have
: consistent with that. I’m trying
: to get myself to track and having
: some success. (Tracking was what
: this lecture was about and I was
: angry about b I got told how
: important ant it is when I have
: been trying so hard but
: ineffectually to track
: consistently. And admitting to her
: that I ate a lot of candy
: yesterday was not something I feel
: comfortable sharing but I did). So
: this was ncident was helpful to me
: as is being able to post about it.
: Now it’s time for me to rejoin n
: the step 2 email list.thank you
: for readings by this,

Wonderful that you found us. My suggestion is to do JUST step one and don't start tracking yet.
There is a method to our process. One step at a time. Get focused and clear. Do less at a time and do it well.

What do you think?

Kathleen