Depths of Despair

I really don't know how to start this post as I am just what my subject line says. I am 90 lbs. overweight, totally hooked on sugar and food in general, Food is all I think about some days and go to bed every night regretting the amounts I ate that day.

I am a vegetarian so my first question is can a vegetarian do this program?

Secondly, which book should I get first - the PnP or YLD?

Thirdly, I just read Katherine'w post on being addicted to feeling lousy and hanging on to bad habits. That opened my eyes a bit as I have a wonderful life except for the addiction to food. No matter what I have tried (and believe me I have tried everything) I have never been able to get my body into a good and healthy place. Am I getting some "kicks" out this behavior?

I would love to hear what others think and receive some encouragement to get off this roller coaster of slowing killing myself.