Hi Bette Jane,

I am glad you found us. This is a place for much solace and healing.

Let me respond right in your note...

I really don't know how to start this
: post as I am just what my subject
: line says. I am 90 lbs.
: overweight, totally hooked on
: sugar and food in general,

Well, you are totally in the right place, girlfriend.
I am going to offer a different perspective. *Food* is not the enemy.
Food will be your healing.

Food is
: all I think about some days and go
: to bed every night regretting the
: amounts I ate that day.

Yah, we all get this. The obsession part is simply biochemical and it will change as your chemisty
changes. Right now, we want you to JUST think about breakfast, Just that one thing.
Read about the four parts of step one here. https://radiantrecovery.com/7-steps/step-guides/

: I am a vegetarian so my first
: question is can a vegetarian do
: this program?

Yes, of course. The key is to think about what you canhave for breakfast.

: Secondly, which book should I get
: first - the PnP or YLD?

Get PnP.It will be such a solace. It will help you understand what is going on biochemically.

: Thirdly, I just read Katherine'w post
: on being addicted to feeling lousy
: and hanging on to bad habits. That
: opened my eyes a bit as I have a
: wonderful life except for the
: addiction to food.

Ok, a couple of things First off my name is Kathleen, not Katherine, LOL.
The Irish bit is important to me.

This is not about *bad habits*...This is about biochemistry and you cannot just will it to change,
You need to heal. And you are not addicted to *food*. You are addicted to the biochemical response of
some of the components of the food. Food is your healer.

No matter what
: I have tried (and believe me I
: have tried everything) I have
: never been able to get my body
: into a good and healthy place.

We all understand this. What youhave tried in the past is all about will power and trying to subject yourself to getting it right
Now we are going to help you change that. And there is no failure. The key is to do one step at a time, in order and slowly.

Am
: I getting some "kicks"
: out this behavior?

Not from the behavior from the chemistry. You are getting comfort, solace, amnesia and anesthesia. The eating has saved you
from the pain. Even though that sounds strange, it is important to appreciate that there is a reason you have been drawn to it,
And we will teach you not only *why* but how to unravel the gordian knot.

: I would love to hear what others
: think and receive some
: encouragement to get off this
: roller coaster of slowing killing
: myself.

First of all, be kind. It is not that you have been killing yourself. You have been running from the pain. And doing it the best way
you knew how. Now you can learn a different way. Get the book, use that link I just gave you and keep writing.

Warmly,

Kathleen