hi BettyJane, so glad you posted and hope you find PnP enlightening, and a comfort

its so good to feel understood

I used to think about food constantly - always some diet or other, and felt absolutely ruled by it. All else secondary and if I didn't have anything to worry about, I would latch onto something - say a wedding six months in the future - and worry about that. I lived in black t shirt and leggings because I couldn't find anything else to fit, and ate things I didn't like because of the promise, and denied myself the things I did like because of the danger of them

what I found out was that balancing my brain chemicals was transformational. It wasn't that I was weak willed. Quite the contrary. Not some character flaw, and nothing set in stone. All to be rebalanced.

Im just pondering - that extreme food focus can be an advantage, when turned around. All that skill ! to be able to focus that energy onto steps instead, what a powerful thing

Nowadays I have such delight in cooking ( I had lost all that joy) I love to eat out and its a real pleasure, instead of something that might derail me for months. Every day I choose foods that I just love, and I focus on the freedom of it all. Yes there are things I do not choose, ever but that takes the dilemma out of everything, its so peaceful.

you made me think, choosing an old breakfast of mine, which would have been oats cooked in water, which gave me heartburn and made me anxious , versus a good old English fry - up breakfast so tasty and enjoyable and satisfying. Yet I stuck with those old oats for years and years just kept going back for more of the same Its so nice to live and feel the difference

keep in touch with us , I know the connection really helps and the community has been so helpful to me...… let us know your breakfast news, and how you are liking it. Did you choose something nice today?