Hi again.

Yep, totally resonate with the "I'm running out of time to fix this!" panic -- I've been feeling that since I was, oh, 24. :) What I've found is that once I started to feel better -- breakfast is a miracle for me -- all of that just fell away. I realized that the promise is to feel better for the rest of my life, however long that is -- and the time frame is just irrelevant.

I'm so glad to have a chance to talk to you about this, because it reminds me that even though I feel like I'm kind of eddying my way through the steps rather than moving forward in any kind of linear fashion :), and I still have so much more room to grow, my life is in fact totally different in terms of how ruled I feel by food and feeling bad about my weight. I used to live in this world of "plan my perfect food plan that I will absolutely start tomorrow, and eat everything that isn't on it today, whether I want it or not :)," and the way I dealt with *any* kind of pain was to double down on that -- both the planning and the bingeing would intensify. Every.darn.day.

Truly, looking back, I can see that it was really just an awful, miserable way to live. And even from my Step 1/Step 2 state, 90% of that is just gone. I lived that way for *decades*, and it's just ... gone. Unbelievable.

I know right now it all seems kind of overwhelming, as much as you want to feel better. It took me a long time to be able to figure out breakfast combos that gave me enough protein -- it was really hard to focus long enough to do that. Just hang in there with yourself, and join the Step One list -- they will help you so much.

Pam