I've been thinking a lot about addiction lately. There are so many levels to it for me. Recently I've been thinking of it in terms of what part of my life do I not want to live when I choose addictive behavior? Even if the addictive behavior is not life threatening like drugs or alcohol, but more benign like lots of TV or overeating, what part of my life is so unpleasant that I want to get rid of it with numbness? Why do I want to throw away chunks of my experience? What am I afraid of feeling?

The answer is usually grief, helplessness and/or anxiety. I'm getting to a place inside where I am looking at all of my choices in the moment. Addiction for me can be subtle, the feeling of not wanting to be where I am and wanting to leave. I aspire to live always where I am and have that be OK, even if it's extremely uncomfortable.

I'm so lucky and grateful to be healthy, strong, connected with loved ones and a sense of spirit, abundant, and happy and content most of the time. I'm still grateful every day for this program. I'm grateful to have a choice to reach out rather than withdraw.

Thank you all for being here, and thank you always, Kathleen.