Thank you for this post. It has given me some things to ponder and I will probably respond in more detail after I've had some time to think.
Allison

: I've been thinking a lot about
: addiction lately. There are so
: many levels to it for me. Recently
: I've been thinking of it in terms
: of what part of my life do I not
: want to live when I choose
: addictive behavior? Even if the
: addictive behavior is not life
: threatening like drugs or alcohol,
: but more benign like lots of TV or
: overeating, what part of my life
: is so unpleasant that I want to
: get rid of it with numbness? Why
: do I want to throw away chunks of
: my experience? What am I afraid of
: feeling?

: The answer is usually grief,
: helplessness and/or anxiety. I'm
: getting to a place inside where I
: am looking at all of my choices in
: the moment. Addiction for me can
: be subtle, the feeling of not
: wanting to be where I am and
: wanting to leave. I aspire to live
: always where I am and have that be
: OK, even if it's extremely
: uncomfortable.

: I'm so lucky and grateful to be
: healthy, strong, connected with
: loved ones and a sense of spirit,
: abundant, and happy and content
: most of the time. I'm still
: grateful every day for this
: program. I'm grateful to have a
: choice to reach out rather than
: withdraw.

: Thank you all for being here, and
: thank you always, Kathleen.