Hi Jennifer,
Welcome back! I am just returning too. It feels good to be back. I am working on tightening up my steps. I can relate to the concerns about weight gain. Its one of the reasons I drift from this program. I never abandon the whole program...just enough to keep me from feeling my best. I need to remind myself how good and balanced I feel when I am working all the steps. I am thinking that when I am feeling so good there is something that gets triggered that makes me drift. I am setting an intention to work this out. Eating breakfast within the hour of waking up and eating a pm potato has helped me to find balance in all areas of my program and life. Feeling good in my body and having emotional balance are priorty.
Checking in on the forum is a big help for support.
Just focus on steo 1 and you will know when you are ready to move on.
Maria

: Hi

: I've been on and off with RR for a
: couple of years, never getting
: past step three. I'm back, and
: hoping to start fresh. I felt like
: I ought to post here first rather
: than hop into step one with a
: bunch of back story. The short of
: the backstory is that an eating
: disorder makes step two quite
: triggering for me, so I got
: spooked each time I had to write
: down what I ate (or skip that
: altogether, which was also scary
: for me). Fear of gaining weight
: has also spooked me away from the
: steps that I know logically my
: body needs so badly.

: I've been feeling terribly depressed,
: have unbelievably low self-esteem,
: am exhausted (even with 8 hours of
: sleep), have terrible mood swings
: and basically cannot get out of my
: own way. I know it's the sugar. I
: have to try again to work these
: steps and feel better.

: Anyway, just wanted to check in. I
: will try to get in with Step One
: again and just do that for now.
: Thanks for listening !