Thanks, Sandra. A hug for you, too!

I appreciate the extra eyes. I have been doing the food and feeling fantastic for more than five years, and this is the worst I have ever felt. I need to fix this.

My journal is filled with “that didn’t work” kinds of things for the past couple of weeks.

Some things I know...steel cut oats no longer stay in my system long enough to give me any nutrients (I imagine)...as of about two weeks ago I don’t really want to eat, feel kind of cruddy before and after whatever I am eating. I have started to eat some of my old standbys even though they don’t appeal to me and logically shouldn’t work....like who eats salmon for breakfast, or who eats pizza-y stuff when she feels nauseous...but at this rate I feel kind of like I have nothing to lose. These things I have been eating have always worked for me before, for a long time, and held me beautifully, so I am kind of force-feeding myself. Hope that makes sense. (Weight down a bit. Protein needs at .4 = 68-70 grams.)

Over the past month or so I have been eating less popcorn and butter than I sometimes did, and less corn and corn chips. First I thought this might be some corn detox, but adding a bit in and out seems not to make a difference.

Sleep is great I’d say, in bed by 10 if not before, and I sleep well through the night almost all the time. I walk 30-40 minutes 3-4 times a week lately not much more exercise than that right now. Usually I have just a bit of sweet potato or baby food sweet potato before bed. I drink water, and add 1-2 tsp. apple cider vinegar morning and night as I have for a long time.

Wednesday, today, up at 7 am: 4 oz salmon, cup GF old fashioned oats and about 1/3 c – ½ c blueberries by 7:30.

At 9 I was feeling nauseous and I had an ounce of almonds.

Lunch at 11:30: quinoa, (box-sized serving, like ¼ cup dry, almost one cup prepared) with 3 oz beef roast, a zucchini, 1/8 of large gala apple and some (about an ounce) white corn chips.

3 pm: home-made oatcake with almonds and PP in them

Supper at 5:30: 2 and a half pc millet toast and some lean sausage and cheese pizza-ish topping, ¼ cup brown rice, cup spaghetti squash, cup broccoli, 1/8 apple.

It is now 8 pm and I feel slightly nauseous and off, just not right at all. Which I am getting used to but don’t like at all. I’m going to have sweet potato (or force a protein and carb snack?) and go to bed early again. Tomorrow I won’t have oats but I’ll try cream of buckwheat instead.
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Tuesday up at 6:30: salmon, GF oats, blueberries, almonds

9 am: GF seed crackers

11:30 lunch: 3 oz beef, cup brown rice, peas, balsamic vinegar dressing,
½ sweet potato, few corn chips

3:30 snack/picnic: ½ cheese stick, about two oz of ham, ½ zucchini, few seed crackers

Supper at 5:45: 4 oz chicken breast, ½ cup black beans, lots of spinach, cup quinoa, balsamic dressing, 7 blackberries

8 pm popcorn with butter, about 4 cups, early bed by 8:45, slept well
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Monday up at 6:45: salmon, GF oats, blueberries
9:15 am: seed crackers, reg V*8 jc
12:30 lunch (late): miracle soup with celery, sweet potato, golden potato, 3 oz pork, large sweet potato from microwave, 8 blackberries
3:15: snack of almonds
5:40: lots of spinach, 4 ½ oz chicken, ¾ cup brown rice, ¼ large gala apple, cup spaghetti squash, lime corn chips
8:30 pc millet toast with PB
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Sunday up at 6 am: shake 24 gr pp, ½ cup almond milk, large spoon almond butter, steel cut oats, 1/3 cup blueberries (This did not stay with me, and made me stop trying to use my normal steel cut oats which I had been having for months before this. I am using GF old fashioned this week with not much better results.)
9:30 snack of two oz chicken, few bites of zuc and brown rice
11:45 am: pork, black beans, tomatoes, corn Qdoba naked burrito, corn chips
3 pm snack: 2 oz chicken, zuc, brown rice
5:45 pm: 3 oz beef, 2 pc millet toast, seed crackers, blackberries, peas
9 pm: oatcake

: Hi Susan!

: Loved reading your joys...pure joy!
: Loved reading about your happy,
: well-fed, and radiant
: granddaughters and loved picturing
: that HUGE leaf! awesome!

: I'm sorry you were feeling under the
: weather and are not able to get BS
: steady. hnmmm. That is puzzling.
: Did you want to post your journal
: maybe and get some feedback that
: way? How's sleep?

: Hope you feel better soon.

: Big hug,

: Sandra